I suck at community building. It’s sad, because I started the business route specifically to build a new community.
I’m slowly starting to understand why this is difficult for me. I was ousted from many communities. It happened online, and IRL. Something always happened, that got me kicked out of groups. All that repeated rejection has been corroding my insides for a long time. It’s like a ball of ice in my chest.
That isn’t to say I haven’t taken part in successfully building communities. I was part of many hobbyist groups, that all eventually collapsed. I built several World of Warcraft guilds. I played Magic the Gathering. I had friends at school. But people grow out of hobbies, they graduate, they get busy with life. I keep failing at creating long-term connections.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m producing content, sure, but at the same time, I’m failing at so many things. If I can’t build a community around my business, what’s the point? It’s not fun.